A BITCH TO ME!
I LOVE YOU!
The Black List star is a BITCH to me!
I am SO, SO, REALLY, REALLY sorry.
I am sorry I ruined your life.
I AM SO, VERY sorry.
Thank you for being the most amazing person I could have ever hoped to be.
And I hope that I am a better person for it.
But I am also really sorry that this entire process of being on the show, the pressure and the pressure to be in front of a camera and being the star, it really took me away from the person that I loved the most, and my best friend, Amber.
It took away from us.
I know that I can’t be that person for you, and I know you can’t relate to that, but you know how important it is that I come back and be who I am and that I put this behind me.
But at the same time, I know what you did for me, and it made me feel so much better.
And you helped me find that love that I always needed to feel in this world.
So I will be with you, Amber, forever, and forever.
It’s just so important that I keep fighting for you and making you feel good about yourself, because this is just a part of who I was.
I can only imagine what it was like to have a big part of your life and have you die young.
But you know what?
You were just a kid.
You were young.
So if I had a child of my own, I wouldn’t let it go to waste.
And so I want you to know, and hopefully you’ll understand, that I want to be with Amber.
I want Amber to know that my heart goes out to you.
And Amber, thank you for everything.
I love you.